miracle.

2009-02-12T15:02:00.003+08:00

Just because Alex is like forcing me :D

You are required to answer ALL the following questions.
Tag 16 people and repost it with the title:
I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 4

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 8

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 11

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 14

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 17

Level 7
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
( ) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 21

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 25

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 29

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 30

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 33

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 35

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 37

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 41

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 45

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 50

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 54

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 56

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 59

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 60

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 63

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 67

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 70

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 72

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 75

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x)Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 79

Level 28
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair (attempted to)
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x)Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 85

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 89

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 93

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

so i did 94/132 stupid things and alex you need to count yours again, seriously.

2009-02-05T22:26:00.006+08:00

And I will see you again
I will see you again a long time from now

I am sick of this. I am sick of pretending.
I sit here and watch you fall apart, pretending I'm strong enough to hold you up
Strong enough to keep you alive,but I just fucking can't.

I'm weak, weaker than you ever thought I was. One by one they leave, forever. Time and time again I have to build a wall around me, try to get over them leaving, and start anew. And it happens again.
I can't have this happen to you, I just can't. Imma try everything I can to keep it from happening.

It's like slowly everything around me is falling apart. Just yesterday, everything felt so perfect, like everything was falling into place. How fucking stupid of me to believe my life could actually be falling into place. It's against me, against me actually enjoying my life.
I'm going crazy, the world is spinning and spinning and I'm at a standstill. Watching everyone around come and go, and staying right where I am, unable to do anything.

I'm sick of this. Sick of life. Sick of love. Sick of happiness.
What the fuck does all that mean anyway.

She died.
He died.
She died.
He died.
He wants to die.
She wants to die.
I'm her 2nd choice.
I'm always someone's 2nd choice.
I'll never be the BEST friend.
She has HER.
He has HER.
I have no one.

Goodbye blog. You've been here for so long, but for now, it's about time I leave and get by on my own.. without you. Without him. Without her. Without her. Without him. Without her. Without him. Without four of them of whom could never come back, and two of which I'm too confused to handle.
I'm going crazy, I feel it.
I need someone to help me.. anyone.

please.

My body aches,
And it hurts to sing.
No one is moving.
And I wish that I weren't here tonight,
But this is my life.
___________________________
And it's been so long.
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong.
No sleep tonight.
_________________________
And there goes my life,
Passing by with every departing flight.
And its been so hard,
So much time so far apart.
And she walks the night.
How many hearts will die tonight?
And will things have changed?
____________________________

2009-01-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

Spent the day at home cause Mom had to go out and I had to take care of my grandma. Mom gave permission to go out for a few hours so I went on to meet Sara, Junita, Jackie, Nicky, Tash and Ness. I'm still at Sara's house actually, I can't believe I'm actually out.

These people are DA BOMB :)

2008-12-20T22:16:00.001+08:00

Christmas Party at my place.
91879124 for details.

=]]

2008-12-18T00:28:00.006+08:00

We had a lovely girls day out a few days ago. I miss these girls so much so meeting them finally was so awesome. Meeting them again tomorrow for Lily's party and I can't wait ONE BIT. I feel like bursting from excitement!

I was too short!

The best friend!

Loveys

The three of us!

Mirror image

Arrian, Me and Trish with our newly bought glasses.

Full of kisses

We exchanged. Trish looks fucking cute here

Love her

I look confused.

Kissssss

Sexy

Downwards glasses

Sad Lips

Teet

I love this picture

HAHA ARRIAN

My pretty Girrfren.

Kinky Scandal

Giant Glasses

Sad Bestie =[

Glasses holder!

Camwhore

xoxo
TOMORROWWW

2008-12-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

I hate waking up in the middle of the night hungry. I hate walking to Kegan's room confidently, opening the door and looking into an empty room. I walk back to my room and cry myself to sleep, cause I miss that bastard.
I hope he's doing better inside then I am out here. I really hope he's fine.

Love you bro.

2008-12-15T22:49:00.001+08:00

'N' level results out Thurs

THE results of the Singapore-Cambridge General Certificate of Education Normal (Academic) and Normal (Technical) Level Examination will be released this Thursday.

Students can obtain their result slips from their respective schools from 2pm on Thursday.

Those who wish to apply for various courses offered by the Institute of Technical Education(ITE) can obtain application forms from their schools when they collect their results.

Private candidates will be notified of their individual results by post. They will also be able to obtain their results through the Singapore Examinations and Assessment Board website.

Quote from "The Straits Time Singapore"

2008-12-12T13:58:00.003+08:00

I just wanna say to Alexandra that I DO infact read her blog probably more than she reads mine. Just that the stupid girl does not actually blog everyday so theres not much to read. Babe, I just wanna say i know exactly how you feel. I feel so thankful now to have You and Huda because you both mean the world to me and I feel like I'm hanging out with 2 hotter versions of me, so that's kinda awesome yeah. I'm not exactly in a blogging mood at the moment but I just wanted to tell you that so yeah. Girl, I wish I could hang out with you today but your sick, get well soon! Maybe we'll pop by cause that's just how much we love you.

see you soon my love, my sister.
<3

2008-12-12T01:38:00.002+08:00

So its 1:38 and I'm starving to death. i can't go wake Kegan up to eat some Macs with me cause the idiot's in camp =[

2008-12-08T01:43:00.001+08:00

What the fuck is love anyways?
Love is getting beat up, cause he cares.
Love is running back again and again to him cause you want him to care.
Love is everything you did to me.

If that's love, I don't fucking want it.
Lust sounds so much more fun.

2008-12-07T08:49:00.005+08:00

Today, Huda and I rushed to the beach to just lie near the waters with Kegan. He was listening to music and Huda and I were laughing and watching him singing out of tune. It hit me, this is it. No more nights with him, no more rushing everywhere to find him, no more listening to him sing, no more preventing any screw ups and listening to him bitch about me to me.

I'm sitting here in Kegan's room after yet another sleepless night. I admit, I stayed up to see Kegan come home and to meet Huda too. Despite all the shit he does sometimes, how retarded and annoying he is, how rude he can be at times, how he is so gross and screwed up at times, how he likes to blackmail me and shit, he's my best friend. And now he's leaving.

I know I'm probably over reacting, I'm probably being to manje and am looking down at his ability to take care of himself, but I'm terrified. I just want him to be okay and NOT depressed. I just wanna see my brother and best friend happy, is that so wrong?

It's not only that.. I'm scared of myself as well. My life is now pretty much revolving around him. Has been for so long now. I wake up, I go to his room to check on him. I come home, I go to his room for a while too. When I'm home, I chill in his room. It's like a sanctuary from the insanity and hatred I see in the rest of the house. When I can't sleep, I chill with him in his room cause I know he won't be sleeping either. I play computer there till he sleeps, then I move on back to my room. When he can't sleep, he comes over and asks me to chill with him too. I just can' imagine a life.. for 2 years.. where I come home everyday looking at his empty room, not hearing his retard ramblings he comes up with and stuff like that. When he leaves, the only sancturary i have in my life leaves with him.

Once again, it's not only that. Lately, I've been chilling with Huda and his friends a lot. Cause I realised how alike we are, and how much shit we can talk about. When he goes to army, everything will change. We'll barely hang out cause Kegan was the string tying me and them together. I'll lose not only Kegan but my 'brother' (Andrew), my 'sister' (Huda) and my sayang (Alex) and Shaun and everyone else. I'll lose my entire lifestyle.

I'm not trying to be selfish, I'm just thinking of everything that'll leave me and anything to be sad about. I'm thinking of other reasons to cry instead of accepting the fact I'm crying cause I just don't want Kegan to leave. It's like 3/4 of my life is leaving cause he's not only my brother, but he's the best friend I have ever had (No offence to everyone else). He knows more than anyone else. I feel, for once, someone understands. He can relate to the shit I'm going through and I know beneath it all, he genuinly cares.

4 days till I lose my best friend, my brother, my lifestyle and my sanctuary. And ya'll think ya'll had it bad.

I understand it's not like he's going to Jail or anything like that. But for two weeks, it'll feel like he is. Then he comes home weekends, which will be better yeah, but not good enough. Then he has off days and stuff, but come on, what's that compared to the everyday everynight thing we have going on now? You have to understand too. Kegan hasn't worked before so I'm used to him ALWAYS being available to talk or chill with. Now, only weekends. Even weekends, he'll be with his friends and Huda. He'll have no time for me anymore.

Fucking NS bastards.

2008-12-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Fuck that, I'm too lazy to ever upload the pics up here. It's depressing cause none are from my camera cause I fucking lost my camera.
Did my nails with Huda two days ago. My fingernails are gold and toes are bright pink. She did Orange for nails and lime green for toes. It felt like heaven sia, to get a mani pedi. Can't wait to get another, hopefully with Alex this time. And a 60 minute massage from Malay Village too! WOO.

2008-12-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

Thanks baaaaybeeeeeeeee.
Your more love though :D

2008-12-04T04:05:00.000+08:00

We know who you are
Are you heaven sent?
Do you think that you're God?
So tell me, are you good to yourself?
Do you make yourself feel empty in your resign?

Now, here, start
Can you see who you are?
A star without a sparkle
A wish without a hope
Running in the dark
A criptic give away
A dropped dead razorblade
This queen's not welcome here

Hey
The star of the show
Cheap romancing in the neon glow
Are you crawling under your skin?
Rabbit holes can solve the riddles within

Now, here, start
Can you see who you are?
A star without a sparkle
A wish without a hope
Running in the dark
A cocaine masquerade
A chopped dead razorblade
This queen's not welcome here

When you wake from your wonderland
And you realize this frame is all wrong
You'll be all alone, alone, alone
We know who you are
Can you see who you are?

2008-12-02T23:01:00.003+08:00

I like to sing in the shower, if you like I'll sing to you.

Pictures from LoveyVal's birthday coming up... probably tmr. Pictures from Sushi with Huda and Hansen as well. I'm too lazy now la, I'm sorry

xoxo

2008-11-30T10:04:00.002+08:00

I'm not allowed to post in Friendster cause of the language, so I'll post it here. Thanks to Lily for the 5 minutes of entertainment this gave me.

These are the rules:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

5. Put this on your bulletin.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
; Suppose by Secondhand Serenade.

2. How would you describe yourself?
; Happily never after by Backstreet boys. WTF! how depressing.

3. What do you like in a girl/guy?
;Sexed Up by Robbie Williams. This doesn't make sense but alright.

4. How do you feel today?
; Apa Apa Dengan Mu by Peterpan

5. What is your life's purpose?
; I want to hear you sad by The Early November. That's right, wanna hear you sad =]

6. What is your motto?
; Pills by The Perishers. HAHAHA My motto is pills? Nice.

7. What do your friends think of you?
; Stranger by Secondhand Serenade

8. your parents?
; Rehab by Amy Winehouse. HAHAHAAHA

9. What do you think about very often?
; Falling in Lust by Cigeratte Sex. HUH. i think about falling in lust often? Whoops.

10. What is 2 + 2?
; August 28th 3:30AM by Automatic Lover

11.What do you think of your best friend?
; Unbilotitled by The Libertines. HAHA Perfect for you la Kegan. Wowwow.

12.What do you think of the person you like?
; You know I'm no good by Amy Winehouse. UHH, no comment man.

13. What is your life story?
; No one but you (Only the good die young) by the We Will Rock You Theatrical. So im going to die young cause im such a good girl? NICE.

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
; When i grow up by the pussycat dolls. OH COME ON, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THIS SONG APPEARING FOR THIS QUESTION. LOL!

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
; I'd Rather Get Some Head by Three Six Mafia ft DJ Unk. Huh, I'm a girl, I can't get head.

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
; Shadows and Regrets by Yellowcard. HAHAHAHAHAH FUCK.

17.What will they play at your funeral?
; Who Wants to Live Forever by We Will Rock You Theatrical. HAHA okay, makes sense I guess?

18.What is your hobby/interest?
; Trip With Me 1 by A random person. I don't actually know who the artist is.

19. What is your biggest fear?
; Beauty In The Breakdown by The Scene Aesthetic.

20.What is your biggest secret?
; I love the cocaine by Buckcherry. WTF! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHHA

21.What do you think of your friends?
; Crazy Bitch by Buckcherry. Huh why them again? anyways,YES my friends are crazy bitches!

22.What will you post this as?
; Don't you forget about me by Yellowcard. Yeah, okay, don't.

23. What song would you play during your first kiss?
; Take me on the floor by The Veronicas. HAHA How kinky is that. First kiss already wanting him to take me on the floor. Aiyoyo.

2008-11-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

F

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!!

Yes everyone. I'm finally free to meet up, to chill, to talk and hang out just like before. Cause I am not an unemployed BUM and I intend to make every second of it count. Pay comes soon, i'll enjoy being unemployed way much more.

So.. to the friends I've been neglecting (EVERYONE esp bestie, if she doesnt mind me callin her that), I'm sorry! However, I'm now free to meet you ANY DAY OF THE WEEK.
Trish, we have to meet up and talk about things. I want you in my life again
Mervyn, we have to celebrate okay.
Kaisho, we need to meet up, act stupid and see raihan!

2008-11-26T14:40:00.002+08:00

We only made out, you never kissed me.
That's how I learned to hold back all feeling.

2008-11-24T08:27:00.003+08:00

Warning, post may turn a little emo.

Fuck you.
Fuck her.
Fuck him.
Fuck everybody.

Because I have a fucking big mouth and can't keep my fucking secrets to myself. Because I should not have said anything because now they know and I fucking don't want anybody to know. I'm so fucking stupid just shoot me.

None of that happened. None of that happened. NONE OF THAT HAPPENED.
Just repeat that shit to yourself till you believe it so you won't look at me and remember everything I told ya'll.

Fuck I'm so STUPID.

2008-11-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

Cause you mean this much to me.

Wait, I don't get why everyone has either been in love with him, or still are in love with him. I don't get why some are even fighting to get him. HE'S SO FUCKING UGLY. He has a gross smile, which people claim are attractive? He looks like he hasn't eaten in months and is like a typical whatshisface kinda guy. With all that said, why is he creating so much drama?

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE GIRLS? ALL OF THEM CAN DO SO MUCH BETTER THAN.. THAT!

Aiya whatever, you wont see me going for a guy who is such an idiot, looks and personality.
I'd rather be single for like.. life. And that says a lot.

XOXOXO

2008-11-14T17:34:00.002+08:00

Huda, you woke me up that day. Made me realise how jumbled up my thoughts all actually are. You made me realise i thought I knew what I wanted but I have no idea. What do I want?

That got me thinking. I don't know what I want. But I sure as hell don't want what everyone is assuming I want out of this. I don't want ANYTHING to happen anymore. As much as I love the feeling being in his arms gives me, I don't. It's much easier to pretend nothing happened. Easier to pretend we're just friends and that's all I can see him as. Because I don't believe I'm actually crushing on him. I'm just falling back into what I used to fall into and I don't want that anymore. Aiya, I refuse to be the Karina I was around Dannial. No more okay, no more.

Much easier to pretend than I actually thought it would be.

2008-11-12T11:52:00.005+08:00

Lady Nags-a-lot is being fucking unreasonable to Keggie today and it's pissin the hell out of me. He's going to army in a month, why can't she just let him, for one month, enjoy his life to the fullest? Instead, she's nagging..and nagging..AND NAGGING. Just shut the hell up and let the boy live! She did not allow me to go out with friends yesterday.. said I had exams today. AT FREAKING 2 PM so why couldn't i? No one knows. She better not use work tomorrow as an excuse to not let me go out today, i swear. I'll just die. UGH.

2008-11-09T20:08:00.002+08:00

I was reading through your old blog posts today, cause you ran through my mind. I realised something I never realised before.
We had the same kind of love in our relationship, but it wasn't with each other.
We just loved the feeling of being loved, and felt that the other gives that to us.
I didn't love you, i loved the fact that you loved me.
You didn't love me, you just loved having a girl to fall back on when others didn't want you.

Can we actually call that a relationship then? Can we actually call ANY of our relationships through these few years an ACTUAL relationship? I can't. I call our relationships just minor flings, hard core flings that happen again and again. We're like a swing, our ups and downs happen so rythmic. Once a year we have a fling, sometimes it lasts a week, this time a few months. But we'll never really last, and it's time I put a stop to it.

This is the end.
The real end.

2008-11-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

This is our decision, to live fast and die young. We've got the vision, now lets have some fun.

I know I haven't been updating recently. I haven't had the time or energy to stay online for more than 10 minutes, which says a lot since I used to be online everyday. HAHA. Everyone's at porks party now, wish I were there. Instead im online on some idiot's laptop =]
Yesterday was such a blur. I remember the sweetest things, but not anything else. I remember the words you said to me but I can't remember a single action. I hate that feeling. I don't actually have anything to say. Im just bored. K thanks.
I miss everyoneeee, even Lee though I see him everyday. Come visit me k, at Zara =] I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START, wtf!

xoxo
Because being pushed against a wall cause he can't take it anymore is so fucking sexy.

2008-11-03T21:41:00.002+08:00

Name 5 people that mean alot to you:
1: Kaisha
2: Rachel
3: Mervyn
4: Kegan
5: Huda

Number One:
What is the last party you attended with this person?
A: Hmm, We party all day babeh. HAH i think Rachel's birthday?

What do you love about this person?
A: How we always say the same thing at the same time, and how we are so alike and can tell each other so much.

How did you meet this person?
A: Primary 3 classmate

Is this person's phone number on your speed dial?
A: yeah, she is.

Does this person call you by a nickname?
A: She calls me an idiot. behind my back. I KNOW THE TRUTH KAISHO. ahha

Numer Two:
Have you ever kissed this person?
A: Maybe for taking pictures, i dunno?

What is this person's favorite store to shop?
A: I dunno man. Dorothy perkins? No idea.

Is this person taller than you?
A: Who isn't?

Does this person know your parents?
A: Yeaah. Mom thinks she's cute.

Number 3:
What does this person drive?
A: NOOOO

Have you ever danced with this person?
A: HAHAH, maybe just to act stupid.

How long have you known each other?
A: Bout 2 years?

Did you go to school with this person?
A: Huh, im in a girls school. HAA!~

Have you been on vacation together?
A: Yeah, the best vacation ever. THAILAND IN MARCH.

Number 4:
Would you consider living with this person?
A: He's my brother, so we DO live together.

When is the last time you talked on the phone to this friend?
A: This morning before he went out

Does this person have any siblings?
A: Yeah, corrie derrick and ME

Where does this person work or go to school?
A: He bums at home cause he's too cool for schoool or work!

Does this person know any of your secrets?
A: EVERY. FUCKING. THING.

Number 5:
Is this person single or taken?
A: She's my sister in law (to be), so yeah she's taken.

Does this person have any pets?
A: yeah, since she's part of the vennard family, Princess is hers.

Is this person a rebel or a rule follower?
A: Rebel all the way, cause she's awesome.

Rate this person's looks 1-10
A: 9. She's damn sexy.

How old was this person when you met?
A: URM, i think bout 16.. in KAYCEE

xoxo
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. It's been uh.. 33 minutes since your last message, and I'm sitting here just waiting for your next message. Why is it you know exactly what to say to make me smile, to make me feel loved all over again. I hate how you make me feel. MESSAGE ME NOW. k thanks =] Eh, i said NOW. Sayang, cant wait to see you again.

2008-11-03T18:05:00.002+08:00

You could be the boy I call when I have a sudden urge for lovin'.
You could be the boy I call when I'm sleeping over a friends place and she has a guy already.
You could be the boy I call cause you could be the one who leaves me wanting more.

You could be my dirty little secret.
you want?

Well, I do.

_______________________________________________________

2008-11-03T17:42:00.004+08:00

BABY PHOTOSS

aiya, what happened=[

Huh? what?

Playing dress up!

Keggieeeeee

I don't know what I was doing, but I still sit like that,

Talk about FAT. Still can eat prawn Crackers.

Dad looks like the guy from beegees

Smilee

Swimming! :D

xoxo

2008-11-03T12:37:00.003+08:00

I never really understood what Kegan was going through when he was working. I always let what he said slide, about how depressing life gets. I never had much of a routine life. I have tried to own a timetable at one point of time, but I was never able to follow it because things always popped up. There shall be no popping up now, because I finally realise how Kegan feels.

Once, maybe twice if I'm lucky, a week, I get to actually have fun. And I can't plan in advance for those kind of days because they pick it at random. Like today, I'm off but I didn't know about it till last night so I'm stuck at home with no plans. I'd rather be home then working anyways. Work is.. aiya, It's more fun than Aquamarine for sure. Everyone's so friendly and hyper and stuff. It's not that I hate work, believe me, I don't.I hate the fact that before I sleep and when I wake up everyday, I just hear myself saying "It's gonna be the same thing all over again". Life is like wake up, bathe, change, make up, work,eat lunch alone, work, eat dinner alone,work, come home, bathe, sleep, and then the next day I do it all over again. And over and over again till I have an off day and I can just stay home and SLEEP. No time for friends, no time for love, no time for family at times. I feel like I haven't chilled in Kegan's room and just talked to him for ages. I miss those times when we were fucking close and I was in his room 24-7 just talking about life. Now im in Marina Sq Zara for 8 to 13 hours of my day, depending on my schedule. Why? For a mere $1100 which I can get if mum lives in Thailand again anyways.
8 to 13 hours a day, 2 days off.
That's about it.

Kaisho, I miss you la. We used to see each other every fcking day cause of work and now I only saw you the day my workplace chased me away from being too sick. We need to hang more! =[

2008-10-30T01:28:00.001+08:00

You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY
.
[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?
;Two of them.

[02] have u ever been given roses?
; Uh yeah?
.
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
; A walk to remember.

[04] Had a Long Distance Relationship?
; Yeah i did. One of the best relationships ever really, HAHA.
.
[05] Do you believe in this saying-What goes around comes around?
; Yeah, Karma's a bitch.

[06] Do you want to get married?
;At this moment of time, no. But maybe if I find the right guy my feelings would change?

[07] How many kids do you want to have?
; none or 2.

[08] Whats your favorite color(s)?
;Green and purple
.
[09] Who was the last person you held hands with?
;Kaisho!

[10] Do you believe in love at first sight?
; I believe in lust at first sight, HAHA!
.
[11] would you kiss the last person
you kissed again?
; Um, I suppose so? No wait, FOR SURE. haha.

[12] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?
;I had my first crush in K2. His name was Nicholas.
.
[13] Do you like anyone?
; Since fucking Sec 1.

[14] Do you know someone who likes you?
; Sadly , yes. HELLO JEFF, wahahah!
.
[15] Do you love anyone?
; My dog. Kegan. Huda. Kaisho. Rachel. A lot =]
.
[16] Do they know you like/love them?
; They had better. BEETCH
.
[17] Why did you and your most recent ex break up?
; ask him cause i still don't know the exact reason. I think he was in love with his ex?
.
[18] When did you two last speak to one another?
; Talking to him now.
.
19] Would you get back together with your ex?
; I don't know. I don't think so actually.

[20] What comes to your mind when you think of love?
; Alcohol.
.
[21] Is there anyone who knows you inside and out?
; No. I would never allow that.

P.S. Jolyn AND Val AND Iylia AND Pre, I miss you.
p.s.s. Boy, i wish you were here NOW.

2008-10-30T01:09:00.003+08:00

We were too caught up in the moment to stop and think
Stop and think of the consequences that may come our way.
We were too caught up in each other to realize we're doing it all over again.
We're falling in love all over again, like we do every year.
And every year we tell ourselves no more, and a few months later it's back again.
Your back again.

Every time you come along, I get hurt.
Every time you come alone, the same shit happens to me.
Every time you come along, you use the same excuse to leave; Another girl.

Not this time.
This time I won't let that happen.

I'm only allowing us to be friends, cause I am savouring being single.
Because I'm crushing over someone else at the 'mo.
Come again in a year maybe.
Our lovin' for this year is up.
Once a year baby, not twice.

2008-10-27T02:49:00.009+08:00

So on Friday night, after Kaisha went for A7X, I went over to her place to sleepover for no apparent reason. We fell asleep at like 5 45? and woke up around 11. Met Hansen for lunch around 1 (so much for 12 30) and after that I went home. The rest of the day slips my mind really. I stayed home stoning i think. Today we were 15 minutes late for work even though we clocked in 15 minutes early cause we got lost in the fucking hotel. AIYA, so annoying okay. After work, with my sakit feet and all, I met my family at a bar to drink drink drank. Got drunk and started spilling to Huda. I'm sorry babe, forget everything k? KTHXBYE. Okay that's it for my weekend.WOW.

Camwhore worx

beeaar

Peacceee bitch

Sorry la, camwhore

Aiya.

Upside down

HUH? WHAT?

Skeleton face

Unplanned.

Bitesherbear

In the middle of the night

Three years old bear.

The morning after.

PEace.

Comfy bed

My failed attempt at acting pretty

I eat feet

love.

It's a blueblack..really..

I love this pic.

Macro.

Kaisho is pretty here

I love this pic.

Hanselot.

"Hi my name is Hansen and i like fourskin"

Ew center parting.

huh what

I look crazy

Daddy

Karaoke.

Elizabeth.

Derrick and Elizabeth.

Mom and Dad.

xoxo
Bet on it

2008-10-27T02:19:00.003+08:00

What's that suppose to mean? Should I be touched or should I feel insulted?

Okay, I'll tell you this at least. My legs hurt so god damn bad, I wish I didn't have to go back tomorrow. I dread not bein able to sit down for all those hours. 8 hours tomorrow, not as bad as the ten today i suppose. If I don't lose weight from this shit, I'm killing someone. I need to rest but my body won't allow it. I hate work. I mean okay the people are nice, the matts are hot, the job it's self is quite okay.. during breakfast. But lunch is a different story. It's all rude chinese people and they think they own you cause they pay service charge. And they all waste food and it's so heart pain to watch. But I need the cash. I make 62? bucks today from 10 hours of work. Who knew money was so difficult to earn. Would normally take me about a minute to get it. "MA I NEED CASH" "how much?" "62 can?" "take la". NOW? 10 FUCKING HOURS.

I.
want.
to.
die.

thank god i have Kaisha.

2008-10-24T22:22:00.004+08:00

You fucking twist your words to make me seem ruder and worse than I really am.
You fucking scold me for no reason just cause you feel like it and have no where else to vent.
You fucking act nice to me when you want to and be a bitch to me the next.
You fucking always point out my faults to me when you have the exact same faults as me, but only worse.
You fucking call me fat when your not all that skinny either.
You fucking hate me and pretend you love me so i do things for you
You fucking expect perfection from me and fuck me over when I'm not what you expect.
You fucking can't understand that I can't be perfect cause there's no such thing.

And you wonder why I wanna get the fuck out of Singapore.

_

2008-10-23T21:53:00.006+08:00

So Auji is going to NS tomorrow so my brother and his friends were having a small gathering to say goodbye (to his hair haha) and good luck. Because I'm a loner and none of my friends were at my place to entertain me, I invited myself into the party. We drank a few beers, two bottles of wine and just chilled around the whole night really. Then around 4 my mum called me out cause she woke up and was scared to be alone. I bailed the moment she fell asleep and joined them again. Then at 6 30 i left to get ready for school. School for about 2 hrs , then i got bored so I went home to sleep. Woke up at 5 pm. WTF RIGHT, super long.
Anyways, work starts tomorrow, I'm suppose to be sleeping now, hah. Fail.

Pictures

All of them.

I don't know why Damian keeps covering his eyes.

Auji's face is amusing.

Damian, Andrew, Shaun

The favourite brother and best friend.

Damian and Kegan.

His shirt says "Show me your tits" HAHA

Shaun.

Cutest couple ever la, both of them

Keggie

Bubblesss

Alex's doing.

This picture ah, everyone's faces are priceless

The guys.

Andrew, Damian, Kegan

They were doing some haunted hotel game thing

We were camwhoring while they were doing it.

My camera sucked ass la. The flash got problem.

Damian keeps covering his eyes!

I love this picture, it's damn cool.

Aiya, then cover both eyes,HAHA!

Rah.

Takes ages to get a shot

Shaun

I think Andrew looks nice here.

xoxo

2008-10-23T01:46:00.002+08:00

The thought of child abuse just breaks my heart.

I always end up going back to this blogskin. I love it way too much

2008-10-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

Welcome to deadblog.com.
I've been so lazy to do proper posts lately!
I still am, i just wanted to say..

I saw S yesterday. Suddenly out of no where he popped into Kegans room and i was like :O ! But he left after like half an hour, sad sad. But I'm glad I saw him, I'm not lucky like RACHEL to see my crush everyday. I barely see him. BUT I SAAAW HIM woo!

Okay thats all.

2008-10-19T02:11:00.017+08:00

Yesterday at Mt Faber was freaking fun. It was like the date all over again at first, cause the first trail we took was the one he and I took as well. I was like oh god, the torture of climbing thost things again. I kept thinking back about the date though, and laughing to myself, lol!Truthfully, I was dying the whole time but it was still fun la. I drank red bull and coffee and got hyper towards the end, when everyone else was tired. I fell alseep the MOMENT i got home, and went out after I got up. We saw monkeys and attempted to find mas selamat "Mas, you kemana Mas?" "Selamat, you adah tak?" WAHA imagine it his head popped out. But we did not find him la, he was sleeping and didn't wanna come talk to us or something. mean right? Anyways, We all love barberella and hate that bride cause she's thick skin. The walk took 3? hours and we took TONS of pictures. I love excursions with Ms Tan and Ms Chai la okay.

Pictures.

In class

CAMwhore

Again.

And again. omg wtf karina.

Kaishaa <3

HAHAHA TO JUN BEHIND.

I love the signs, super cute.

The start of the trail.

Chelsea and Amal

Amal again.

Junitaaa! Was suppose to be a shot with me but i missed.

Climbing the stairs, starting part, before we got tired.

Chelseaaa.

Amal again!

Finally getting tired. And it's only the first trail.

Sweat!

Alyssia and Creston. WAHA

Mas Selamat is somewhere in there la okay.

Monkey, and it's baby clinging on for dear life

Baby looks, Mummy doesn't.

Mummy looks, baby doesn't

Zakiah!

Rachel!

Uh, bus?

Ms Chai

Ms Chai again,and I'm standing weird.

Mas Selamat is RIGHT on top. See those men up there?

Singapore!

Kaisho.

Junita was not amused.

Like nice only.

Cool looking tree.

Junito and Me.

I love this picture.. cause I took it duuh.

The dustbin spoils it la

Junita and Kaisha

I love number 1!
1. Take nothing from nature but photographs

All of us who went there.

Trail number 2!

Junito!

Mikey, Me, Kaisha (HAHAH I LOVE YOUR POSE) and Amal.

Ms Tan and Rachel.

The view from where we were. OMG high.

All of us posing for a picture, haa

Mikey again

Jermaine!

Everyone except me

My loveys posing for a picture.

LOVE

The stuck up bride la okay.

I love the face Junita was giving Chelsea.

Photographer of the day.

Trail 3.

Forest walk. trail 3.

Mikey taking pictures.

Up closer.

I didn't realise Kaisha's head was freaking poping out of no where.

Chelsea's butt.

Ms chai can be so cute sometimes.

Zaki!

Chel

HAHAH MIKEY

Trail 4.

No entry, cause Mas Selamat is in there!

They went in just cause it said No Entry

That random woman was FUCKING TALL

Alyssia.

Alyssia angry.

Alyssia climbing up to meet Creston.

Ms Chai again.

Uh, the flower my first boyfriend used to stuff in my face

Branches fall.

We don't listen to arrows.

xoxo
Okay the end, and just for the record, CLUB MARC NEEDS TO ANSWER THE PHONE.

2008-10-19T01:44:00.010+08:00

I shall split the posts up, today and that day at orchard with Mervyn, Sam, his two friends, Nigel and Serene. Josh and Shar popped by too!
The one of mt faber will be seperated because it deserves it's very own post!
Okay, I don't actually remember what happened that day at orchard, but today we chilled at Parkway and we ate chicken from cold storage in Mos Burger and then we moved on to play cards and then we moved outside to uh, play cards. WTF?

Okay! PICTURES

That day at Orchard.

Start with my girlfriend.

Sam's two friendss.

SHAR and his 5 tiger beers

Huh what?

Unglam, glam and retard.

EEEEH. ahahah

I love his face.

Looks all innocent and hapy right? - Drawing by Mervyn

The cow has a dick for a nose

The snail farts.

He gets mad when people take pictures of him eating.

Serene

I don't even know.

Serene.

The eating pattern of Samuel

THE END.

Mervyn's Ic. WHAHA

cuteee, like a hamster.

Today!

JOOOOONITA

Rachel and I.

UPCLOSE.

We were playing cards.

YAY

Tai Tee or however it's spelt.

Cockeyed core.

Down the hallway

Saturday night fever.

Joooonitah

Cotton on hat!

Rachel and her nice legs

Her working skirt.

She was trying to cover the light. FAIL/

Seventeen, with nadene in it.

xoxo
You always know the right time to come back, and leave me wanting more.

2008-10-15T05:40:00.004+08:00

All this time is wasted
Pretending we're in love

We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart

Once again, its 5 45 and I can't sleep. I'm just glad it's not for the same reason as before. Now it's cause I watched 4bia. DALTON GARNELL I BLAME YOU! Anyways yeah, some weird ass song is playing on TV and I wanna go out now. I don't actually know what to blog about, I've lost my love of blogging.

I just wanna go call you so we can talk on the phone for hours just like we did yesterday but I don't wanna be the one to call. I won't ever call. I want to so badly though, I've never had that much fun talking on the phone before. Even with my ex boyfriend, who i could talk all night with. We sang together, thought up random jokes, made fun of people and their laughs, made animal sounds, scared each other, you told me 243124123123412 stories of your life and your past though i didn't tell you anything about mine and so much other stuff like that. I've never laughed so much in my LIFE. I'm sorry I made up a fucking stupid excuse to put down. I don't even know why i did. You know why I put down, you knew I was going to if you said that, and you did. SO ITS YOUR FAULT NEHNEHNEHNEHNEH. Never, ever, say the L word again. But yeah, i'll see you in a few hours. EH WTF your early and here now. Your a freak! What if I wasn't awake ah? No wonder you didn't call me. Okay then I got to stop blogging to open the door, BYEE

and just for the record, SHARM I FUCKING LOVE YOU, HAHAHA

Sharm★ let's fall apart together says:
i fail
maybe i should just go to france
and sit alone on the ifail tower
Karina "Blowin' kisses like we're lovers" says:
wtf why
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
I GET IT
WTF
im quoting tht in my blog

xoxo

2008-10-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOSH
OH MY GOSH
OH MY GOSH
OH MY GOSH
OH MY GOSH

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THURSDAY!
no, not for motley crue, I'm not going for it.

I can't wait for Ivan to call!
Ivan is not some new boyfriend, pfft.
But hopefully, if i get the job, he'll be my new boss!
I CAN'T WAIT.
I wanna work there super badly.
I've never wanted to work before, but I wanna work there!

imagine me working, HAHA
I'm super excited, lala

xoxo
Emz, I miss you already =[

2008-10-13T02:39:00.004+08:00

"Hey man, don't hate on me cause I got your girl.. oh wait, she ain't your girl no more"
"Don't fuckin give me that face cause she's found someone better. You ain't shit to her no more"

Jeff, I love you. HAHA not in that way but yeah I love you. Your so awesome at times.

xoxo

2008-10-12T00:08:00.006+08:00

Okay so I'm lazy again to update. Where's the surprise in that right? So today I went out with this guy for a while then decided to meet up with my friends. He was nice I suppose, gentlemanly and stuff? Anyways friends! Met up with Yiting and Jamal on the train, then we went to Far east to jalan jalan until Gwen came then we went to McCafe to chill. Soon, Lily came followed by Mervyn, Nigel, Sam and A LOT of other people. We camwhored and stuff then i left to meet loveylovey, Kaisha at city hall.
We went to Clarke quay and decided to have a romantic dinner by the waterside. HAHA! Then we walked around, boywatched and chilled and talked and listened to music. I love her loads la okay.
Oh, on Thursday I met her too. We went to Orchard to watch House Bunny then met some ghey malay guy, then a small malay guy. I don't know their names but whatever.
Now Jeff is here BOTHERING me and I wanna sleep but he's annoying so I can't. CAN YOU GO AWAY.

Also, Emz, My darling, I did your sign today! I'll send it to you tomorrow k, but I'm uploading them here anyways, heh.

Get ready for 2343253243243242356435349505824 pictures!

Thursday.

Undigestable Sesame Seeds.

Omg fattie. HAHAHA

Would you like an ONION ring

Whatever.

Today.

My two favourite badges

This still makes me laugh.

Omg Jamal

He's super unglam.

MERVYNNN

I heart you.

Gwen.

Crazy

Kawaii WorxXzX

COCK EYED. WAHAHA

Nigel =]

Yiting, Jamal and Gwen

The glamorous

The three chicks.

Four chicks and Nigel.

Yes, that is my foot. Mervyn was lifting it up.

I pinched him!

He's too glamorous to be true

Gwen is SUPER pretty.

During our dinner date

We shared this.

Cabonara

Salad

Cabonara

Eaaat

While waiting for food

Candle light

I look weird.

Waterside Lights.

Table number EIGHT

Yup.

Candle light dinner

Nice eh.

White!

Cabonara

Salmon. We switched.

The end result!

OMG no sweat. WAHAHA

Ministry of sound has LEFT the building.

HAHA glam!

Lovey

Cause she's awesome

She was drying her hands, HAHA

I was like eh why not taking.

ZOMG crazy

Would you like to touch my moustache?

Yes emz, I DIDN'T FORGET YOU.
I'm sorry we didn't get to talk much today.
You were missed okayZzZ.
Here's the signs I did. I can't choose which.
Like you sia, one looking at camera, one not. HAHAH wtf

Cause you are babe.

I like this picture more though!

xoxo

2008-10-11T04:03:00.003+08:00

Well, it's 4 am and I can't sleep. Naas is probably sleeping now, and she won't see this on her facebook cause it won't be under notices anymore. But naas, I'm sure this will make you smile so I copied it for you. Hope your having dreams of me.

Written by:
Jeff

2008-10-10T16:43:00.006+08:00

The best 14 year old girl I know!

ILY2 honeey
Can't wait to meet and camwhore Y
We'll move to England and have the time of our lives with Oliver (and jeff?)
OR
We'll move to California and have the time of our lives with teenspot-ish guys.
Let's just see our moods.

I'll do your sign soon!

xoxo
LOVELOVELONGLONG

2008-10-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

My problem isn't that I miss you,
'Cuz I don't,
My problem isn't that I kissed you,
Whoa

I figured out that you're,
Nothing that I thought you're about,
You're just caught in a place,
Time will erase,
In my heart

You're my type of guy, I guess,
If I was stuck in East Northumberland High,
For the rest of my life,
But people change,
Thank God I did,
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you now,
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you,

Your problem's not for lack of trying,
'Cuz you do,
It's just you're at your best when you're lying,
Whoa,

Now you're standing here,
Saying thankyou, things I wanted to hear,
But you've got it all wrong,
I've already moved on
My dear,

You're my type of guy, I guess,
If I was stuck in East Northumberland High,
For the rest of my life,
But people change,
Thank God I did,
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you now,
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you,

When you're standing near me,
I don't see so clearly,
The feelings are still powerful,
But when I take two steps away,
It sheds some light on my day,
Yeah you can't go back,
It's all in the past,
Guess you gotta laugh at it

You're my type of guy, I guess,
If I was stuck in East Northumberland High,
For the rest of my life,
But people change,
Thank God I did,
And if there's some confusion,
Let me tell you you're just delusional,
Get a clue,
'Cuz people change,
Thank God I did,
Thank God I did,

Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you now,
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you,
Doesn't mean I like you!
Just because I liked you back then,
Doesn't mean I like you now

2008-10-09T16:20:00.002+08:00

YES IT'S OVER.
IT'S OVER.
N LEVELS IS FINALLY OVER.

Meeting Kaisho in a few.. okay, 2 hours.
Yes yes yes replay yesterday!

I shall marry Jude, and Corbin, and Matthew, and Johnny.
I'm oh so greedy, but i want them all!

2008-10-08T23:24:00.016+08:00

To start off the post,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DILLA Y
Macam best friends eh? haha wtf!

Okay anyways, met Kaisha after her paper so we can bus to Marina Sq to meet the birthday girl. She didn't know I was coming so we bought a cake and I stood outside to make it look presentable while Kaisha pretended nothing was going on. Fucking no one outside had a lighter la okay. I felt so stupid walking around asking for lighters. Finally some cute malay boy had one. Yes, cute, HAH! Anyways, so I walked inside starbucks and they were buying drinks? So much for them sitting down and me appearing behind. But she was like omg omg omg then we sang to her and she blew her candle. Kaisha and I were super hyper then after a few hours she became hyper too. OMG she's so cute hyper, she moonwalks, WAHAH. So three of us were all hyper. OMG OMG DILLA AND KAISHA WORE THE SAME SKIRT. How cool is that? We went to Mango and all of us tried on the same black dress. IT WAS DAMN NICE. I want it? but no, cannot. Got another one that is fucking nice, but my tits were poppin' so I couldn't get it =[ After jalan-ing, we ended up at raffles city then Dilla left to meet another friend and Kaisha and I went to Clarke Quay to eat dinner with Hansen. We popped by the bungee place so i could see Chucky and saw Kitt there (black shirt guy) but Chucky wasnt. He offered us a free ride on the swing and I made Kaisha do it with me. OMG the chair was super wet and our skirts were wet. Anyways we screamed like crazy, I love it! Then we met Hansen and we ate at burger king then went shopping. Then back to the bungee place to see Chucky. HE SUCKS OKAY. He was working and didnt even notice me. WTF idiot. Kitt was like tell him to fuck himselF! HAHA cute! Anyways, then we went home? The end.

Special for Emz, if you read this.
I love Oliver too, but he's all yours k! I'm taking blondie and turning his hair black and turning him straight. WOW dream come true!

Birthday girl wanna have fun?

Where you go? starbucks. huh what?

ZOMG kaisho.

FUCKING CUTEEE

The same skirttt!

They have the same eyeeess

On the escalator.

Dilla and me.

Failed the first time

Clear the 2nd time

Poppin' tits =[

I look crazy

Her shoe got problem.

Omg unintentially same pose.

Dilla looks uber cute here.

And Dilla's the only one looking at the camera, haha!

OMG I LOVE THIS PICTURE

It's the same fucking picture okay,

Still the same fucking picture!

In the toilet.

She is awesome.

Whatever karina act pretty.

Omg bone.

Burger kinnngg

HAHAHA

Hansen

Yorxxx

Bite

OMG giant bite

He's like -.-

Steam face

Our boyfriend

If i flip this vertically, my body is a F shape

Taken by Kitt. He was doing some bungee thing la.

Down below

Loveees

I look nice -.-

Poutt

SWINGG

GX singapore

Hansenn!

Kaisha and my nose and lips

He looks stoned.

Still does.

KITT, cause he's the reason we got our butts WET.

xoxo
Lets do it again anytime.

2008-10-08T00:52:00.004+08:00

01 Are your ears gauged?
uh nope

02 Does your best friend parent's hate you?
I sure as hell hope not.

03 Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a T?
Obviously -.-

04 Would you get married if you could right now?
Yeah I would. To Corbin Bleu, or Johnny Depp. AGE DOESN'T MATTER OKAY

05 How did you feel when you woke up today?
Scared

06 Last thing you ate?
Uh, cereal for breakfast

07 Your parents?
are sleeping

08 Are you in a good mood?
No where near!

09 Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
cold actually.

10 Is any part of your body sore?
My leg. Jeff bit it! Who the fuck bites legs la okay. He was like "Eh naas, your leg is damn sexy. *BITE*" and i was like "WTF bite for what. asshole you know, that hurts" and then he said "HAH don't know really. It's so bitey. EH look at how deep i bit. Oh no, im sorry!" YOUR NOT FORGIVEN.

11 Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Not really.

12 Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
Dark hair

13 Do you miss anyone right now?
Not really

14 Lose a best friend lately?
Yupyup

15 Last hug?
Teddy bear

16 Last person you talked to on the phone?
Im on the phone with Suhaimi now

17 Who is the last person you texted?
Suhaimi

18 Who is the last person you IMed?
Hudaaa

19 Do you tell your mum everything?
Nope, no way.

20 Have you ever done something outrageously dumb and regret it?
Oh my. countless times sia

21 Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Nope.

22 What's worse? Liars or cheaters?
Liars. Cheating, sometimes you can't help it you know. Like too caught up in the moment or something. But liars know what they're doing is wrong so UGH.

23 Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive.

24 Can men and women be "Just Friends"?
Yup. Like Mervyn and Sam and Nigel and Jeff and Myles and Ivan and so many other guys and I.

25 If someone called you a b itch would you be offended?
Not really. I'll be like uh... anything new?

26 Are you okay with your boyfriend/girlfriend being friends with an ex?
Not really. It's a tad weird.

27 Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Why not?

28 How do you feel about tanning booths?
The thought of being in those coffin like things after watching those horror shows... ugh

29 Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
HAHAHA oh how truth and dare makes me do the dumbest things. He's not random ANYMORE though.

30 Are you a jealous person?
Not anymore.

31 What's your astrological sign?
I'm a VIRGOO

32 Are you a beach, country or city person?
Beach probably. City too. Country.. not that much.

33 Have you ever seen or called anyone you met on Friendster?
Yeah I have. Mervyn for one.

34 Have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?
I missed school, yeah.

35 When you marry will you wear white?
Yup. I already planned my wedding dress. wtf , i know.

36 Do you and your friends have any ‘code’ words?
Jeff and I do. HAHAH wtf right.

38 If you had to learn another language, which one would you choose?
Italian.

39 What electronic device are you most appreciative of?
Phone and computer. Everything else, not as important

40 Have you ever watched porn?
HAHA yeah.

wtf no 37. I shall make up my own

37 Are you bored?
Oh my, you have no fucking idea. Suhaimi just put down the phone, its 1 am and no one is online. I have nothing to do and my eyes hurt. I GOT NO SCHOOL TOMORROW. nehnehnehnehnehnehnehneh can't touch this.

xoxo

2008-10-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

For those of you who like american guys, (or latino guys, in my case)

Rumor has it a ship will be coming to town nearing Halloween.
I don't care if ya'll hate Navy guys, but dang some are really hot and ALL are friendly.
Exams will be over by then so it's time for some partying.
And I'm free to do what I want, cause I'm single. Doesn't that sound like fun?
NOOO, I'm going with my momma, cause she's one of the best people to party with, not that you would know.

Also, since this year would be our last year living in this house, we're having a christmas party again. For those of you who have known me long enough, you should know how crazy my parties can get. First friends and I exchange presents, the real thing starts around 9, people passed out everywhere, rooms taken up by idiot friends to do idiot things. We dress up all nicely, with dresses and high heels and blazers for the boys. The house will be beautifully decorated, with lights and reindeers and the christmas tree and maybe even more since it's our last year. My mother forcing friends and i to drink even though we say NO more. She'll line us up, give us each a shot of tequila. Us being the whole party. Hit the gong and everyone goes ehhh and bottoms up! Can't say no, or she'll kill you. Buffet of English AND Asian food, even a BBQ buffet in the garden if that's what your in to. Two years ago, a bus came sia, with like family and friends! Uncles gambling outside by the pool table until 10 am the next day. People earn or lose hundreds of dollars. Making friends with my brother's hot friends and well alcohol,alcohol and more alcohol. Dad randomly dresses up as Santa Claus to pass presents to the younger children. If theres a navy ship in town around that time, about 30 guys from there come and join also. I'm normally passed out in someones room by 3 am, but who knows, my alcohol intake is wayy better now.
So if anyone wants to come, just let me know. It's gonna be open house but I don't want you there if I don't like you so warn me in advance anyways. More details will be up nearer christmas cause christmas is still AGES away but alamak, excited la :D

xoxo
I wanna see you again

2008-10-07T00:49:00.005+08:00

Hello World!

I'm updating for Karina cause she's too busy to update herself. Busy being a lazy arse and sleeping! She had Literature and A math today. She says she fell alseep half way through Literature, and that the red bull I dropped off at her house during her paper helped a lot when it came to her A math. I'm glad I can help. I didn't expect her to come home and drink it before her paper, but since she did, cool.
She has a thing for tribal tattoos! She likes tongue piercings, I have two. She likes tribal tattoos, I have one. She likes mop hairstyles, I got that. She likes my slang. She likes my "perfectly not perfect" teeth, according to her. She likes my muscles. She likes the way I dress. She doesn't like me. Now tell me, does that make sense? NO. Instead, she just wants to be friends and torture me. Well I'll never see her like a friend, cause she's too pretty to be just friends with. I want her to be my first girlfriend. Yes, I have never had a girlfriend before because relationships seemed gross to me. It seemed all so fake, so fucked up. But I want nothing more in the world than for her to be officially mine. Just like the song we sing and dance to. Wait, she taught me a malay word for dance today. Um.. joget or somethin! LET'S JOGET
Did you know we finish each other's sentences? She always says things I'm thinking and claims it's the same for her. My dad loves her, and her mum loves me. We both like the same kind of music and we both cannot sing for nuts but it doesn't stop us from singing anyways. We watch the same kind of movies and enjoy doing the same kind of things. We talk and type the same. She's perfect for me and vice versa so she should just see that. right? WRONG.
Instead she's lost her trust in guys because of her ex boyfriends. She's lost her trust in love and thinks that within a month I'll fall out of love with her. I'm listening to Kaisha, I'm going to wait until she's ready. I'm willing to wait! Aren't I sweet? ;)

xoxo
Hope your having sweet dreams Angel. I know I will cause your in them. See you tomorrow, whether you want me to or not!

2008-10-05T23:05:00.005+08:00

Met up with the guys today. The guys being Sam, Mervyn and Nigel. Nigel did some hip dermal thingy, I don't actually how it's spelt. I looked super emokid today, i don't actually know why. HAHA i was just in the mood to dress the way I used to dress. But when I reached Far East, I felt really like, self-concious, cause I'm NOT SCENE. Anyways yeah, met Mervyn and his new hair, Sam and his sexy arms and Nigel and his girly legs =p
There was some big sized American guy getting a tattoo done the same time Nigel got his hip thingy done. Samuel made friends with him. OMG when the guy stood up, I realised he was FUCKING tall. Anyways, loooking at tattoo books, I found out my fetish. AHAH wtf, it's so not a fetish, more like a turn on. TRIBAL TATTOOS! I think they are super sexy. like SUUPPPEERR sexy, can die kinda sexy. Not yours Jeff, cause its you. HAHAHA jk
Okay anyways, that's about it. I realised how much I miss the gang and now that nothing is holding me back (exams are gonna be over on thursday), i can meet them as much as i want.

Also, I saw a video of us in Primary 6. OMG CLAIRE YOUR PICTURE MADE ME LAUGH, YOU WERE DOING A CHEENA POSE. Anyways, I'm gonna find a way to steal it and upload it here k

Pictures. I have the same face in nearly all the pictures. I didn't do it intentionally.

Meet SAM

I love Sam.

Omg Kawaii pose.

Too bright!

The American guy's tattoo

AHAHAHAHAHA =]

Failure one.

=]]]]]

Nigeeeeel

Pervyyy

I'm getting annoyed at my same facial expression

And again.

2008-10-05T10:46:00.004+08:00

Update on yesterday.

Met up at like 11 30 and at 12 30 we watched Eagle Eye. Wow, amazing movie! You should really watch it la, i was like so enthu with the movie. If that was real life, I'm never answering a phone again, HAHA. Then after the movie we went to the waterside so he could smoke, then we decided to walk walk and went to Mt Faber.
OHMYGOD, I am SO glad i didn't wear heels, HAHA. We climbed tons of stairs and got to the top after like 2 hours. He was wearing Jeans and a long sleeve top, poor him! Then we went to Manila, Jakarta, Kuala Lumpur and Bangkok. You won't get it, it's a inside thing. Then we walked even more till we got too tired and thirsty then we walked down to get a drink. WHAT KIND OF 7-11 DOESN'T SELL SLURPEES! idiots.
Anyways, I left for home around 8 30. So we spent the whole day together, 9 hours! But it was fun ah.

Me- "so.. my taxi driver's name was Sandra"
Him- " Oh, girl driver?"
Me- "NO, ahahahha"
Fucking funny la okay. The guy's name was Sandra. What were his parents thinking?

Okay, all in all, I'm glad the day happened cause it's the only date I've been on that didn't have any awkward moments and we talked like we were friends for dunno how long. He's really nice.
KAISHAA, don't worry :D haha

2008-10-03T21:05:00.009+08:00

So..
MOVING ON.

'Cos come tomorrow,
There's always someone else in line.

2008-10-02T23:20:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Guess who? Yeah, it's Jeff again! Karina's out in the balcony listening to music and as usual, she forgot to sign out of her blog. She said she forgives me so here I am! She's going out for a date this weekend. I want to know what that guy has that I don't but she refuses to tell me. I don't know who this guy is or what's so special about him but I really want to know. I've tried so hard to get her attention, to always be there for her and now some random guy comes along and she accepts his date. This is terribly unfair and like she always says, I am not amused! I know this is mean but I really hope it doesnt work out. I WANT HER and I don't wish for her to want someone else. It's bad enough she still wants her ex boyfriend. She showed me the outfit she wanted to wear for the date and what her ex boyfriend said she should wear. Okay, so she didn't tell him it was for a date but he said she should wear that for going out. She asked me which was nicer and got mad when I didn't know what to say. One's really hot and one's really her. I told her to wear what her ex-boyfriend asked her to use, cause it's doesn't show off her legs and it shows how she really is. I didn't tell her that was the reason but still. So she answered "knowing you, you want the date to fail so your probably choosing the uglier outfit. So i'll wear the dress". I was so mad that she would think that way, though it's true. I really did think the green top was better though, it brought out her pretty brown eyes. She doesn't trust me so she's wearing the purple dress which shows off her nice legs and small waist. It sucks cause the dates not with me! rofl! Okay, the end of my post cause I hear her coming.

Love again,
Jeff

2008-10-01T22:08:00.003+08:00

Hello!
I shall write in proper english so Karina will not murder me for screwing her blog up.
Okay, truthfully, she probably already is going to kill me for posting this shit up, but I'm going to anyways. Karina is in my balcony talking to her ex boyfriend. I wish she would stop crying, it hurts me to see her cry. I keep telling her it will all be okay but she refuses to listen to me. Oh, i also just realised I have not introduced myself. Hello Karina's friends, my name is Jeff :D . Knowing her, she probably did not tell anyone about me because I don't mean as much to her as she does to me. Yes, depressing, i know. She's actually really angry at me now so posting this up is not going to help anything but she didn't sign out and I am terribly bored. Oops, I have to go, Dad is calling me. Looks like Karina wants to go home. Okay ya'll, I'm off to walk her home. I shall swindle her password off her and post again soon

Love
Jeff

2008-09-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

I found other means of sending the photos so this blog is closed again
Also, i think tudongs are super cute.
This are the only pictures you can see of me till I feel like blogging once more.

No makeup AT ALL

Oh the dreaded eyebags

I will miss heer =[

Lily, i love you.
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE you.

2008-09-30T22:10:00.001+08:00

Okay so my study break was spent doing about an hour of studying ALL TOGETHER.
So obviously, I was no where near ready for the three exams that came my way.
Oh well! HAHAHAHA wtf im actually terrified but shh.

Yantie left to Indonesia for a month. I have to start folding my own clothes. Oh my. Mums gonna start doing the cleaning and she is super grumpy when it comes to cleaning. She'll just scream her lungs out and throw everything away. I wish she didn't have to go.
I'm super sad at her leaving, she's gotten like a super close friend to me =[

Anyways, the rest of study break was spent at Downtown East chalet with Alyssia, Dalton and their family and friends. It was alright, would've been better if i knew their friends, but i only knew one guy so I was stoning in the room all day. Except for the time we went swimming, And didn't even swim! We just took pictures. lol.
Okay the end.

Pictures

Red hair? I dunno why

Yes, that's my mum

She's CRAZY

Woo hoo.

She wasn't digging her nose. Just looks that way. oh nooo she's gonna kill me

I want glasses!

Meet Aunty Angela (my ex mother in law, hahaha)

Blowjob face

Peace!

Brotherrr

I look crazy

In the chalet.

HAHAAH don't kill me babe

For Buns.

Aunty Angela and Mum.

Yes you are =D

HAHAH

Disfigured.

First picture taken being underwater.

Alyssia alone.

Me alone. i like my eye colour underwater.

Creston alone.

Hunnieeeeeeeeees (thank you kaisha for following me to thread my brows, CHECK IT OUT)

Omg i look gross, but it's cool looking too.

They were drowning me

Brother and sister.

Camwhoreee

HAHA poser.

Next to the glass

Lawinton and his girlfriend.

HAHAHAHHA

Creston, Dalton, HAHALAWINTON, Cerise

The family!

Unglam.

Cutest couple sia.

Dalton and Creston again

Awww

AWWW

HAHA poses.

Uh, fighters?

Alyssia mean sia, push me down.

ZOMG crazy

Mermaid.

He was trying to drown Creston.

Mafia

EW, unglam.

Strongg girlfriend.

HAHA he was pulling me around.

Dalton

Posseee

Love.

Haha Dalton is just like pushing everyone away

Dalton and I, and everyone failing at joining the picture

PEEEEAAAACCEEE

oMG i look super red.

Camwhore

In the chalet room before the friends came.

We locked the door and were super hyper

I was laughing too hard

Smiles.

OMG my tits be poppin'

xoxo

p.s. Hello Mr Jeff Michaels. Welcome to my blog. Hope you had fun reading it, DON'T GET USED TO IT. don't want you knowing about my life. It's a secret. ESPECIALLY from you cause if you know something bad is going on, you'll just POP out of no where and make me feel better. (huh why would i be complaining ah, but still) I'm suppose to be at your house now but it's freaking raining and I'm stuck at home. Make your dad pick me up! HAHA
okay bye mr venom piercing.

2008-09-26T12:08:00.003+08:00

Cause I'm seriously super bored.
40 Little Secrets
Be honest no matter what...

one: Who are your last 4 texts from?
Sarah, Trish, Dannial and Dannial

two: Where was your default picture taken?
My bedroom.

three: What's your middle name?
Wendy Audrey

four: What’s your current favorite color?
Mossy Green and Dark Purple

five: Does your crush like you back?
I should think so?

six: What is your current mood?
Lazy but comfortable

seven: When is your birthday?
September 3rd

eight: What color shirt are you wearing?
Uh.. no shirt.

nine: If you were going on a Reality TV show, which one would it be?
UH, knowing me, probably something like The Simple Life. HAHAH

ten: Are you imagining anyone naked right now?
WTF, i wasn't until THIS question came out -.=

eleven: Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?
Hmm, a few times yeah

twelve: Ever had a near death experience?
Yeah.

thirteen: Something you do a lot?
Sing. I know, my poor family.

fourteen: How old will you be in 12 months?
17! =D

fifteen: Do you want to see somebody right now?
Well yeah.

sixteen: How many piercings do you want?
well, i have 5 now, I just want 1 more on my ear and an eyebrow and monroe. maybe a smiley? So thats uh.. 9?

seventeen: When was the last time you cried?
Bout half an hour ago.

eighteen: Who would you do anything for?
Dan, Trish, Kegan and Princess. AHAH

nineteen: Who is your hero?
Omg, i never actually thought of this. S:

twenty-one: American Pie or Superbad?
AMERICAN PIE. cause got more to watch.

twenty-two: What's your biggest fear?
Being alone with no one I know around me.

twenty-three: Are you in love?
Yeah.

twenty-five: What are you going to do tonight?
Probably go to the Chalet again. Oh the joy -.-

twenty-six: What was the first thing you said this morning?
uh something along the lines of "fuck off kegan you pull my toe one more time and it's going in your mouth" . He was annoying me.

twenty-seven: Speak any other languages?
Hmm. A bit of indo, malay, chinese, italian and portugese.

twenty-eight: What’s your favorite smell?
Dan. HAHAHA jk actually i like uh.. the smell of parks after a heavy rain.

twenty-nine: do you like to sleep naked?
I've never tried sleeping stark naked.

thirty: Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
I want to be. It sounds FUCKING ROMANTIC. i want i want =[

thirty-one: Do you like rain?
One of my top 3 favourite things

thirty-two: What are you thinking about right now?
How annoyed I am at youtube

thirty-three: What should you be doing right now?
Getting off my lazy arse and showering

thirty-four: What’s your favorite memory?
-cheeky smile. That's for me to know and for you to probably be able to guess.

thirty-seven: Who was the last person you yelled at?
Kegan?

thirty-eight: Who is your best friend?
Kegan, Trish, Shaun and Rachel.

thirty-nine: who is the last person you said I love you too?
Dan. I don't actually say i love you to other people much.

forty: Who is the last person that made you smile?
Kegan when he gave me =].

xoxo